It was the perfect day

I did the one thing I really didn’t want to do
But I did it just for you
I never wanted to be judge, juror or God
But I played the role only for you

It was the right day and I knew it
Somewhere deep inside I just knew
Today the ‘Green Mile’ was waiting
And I did what I had to do.

We walked the last journey together
The warmth of the evening sun
The pain, ever raging, hidden deep inside
It could wait... it’s time would come

[All light and reason begin to fade]

In a moment of weakness I was going to leave you
Couldn’t walk those last few steps
But that wasn’t what you wanted
Together until the bitter sweet end

I held your head and our eyes met
Just as they had so many years ago
I was shaking so hard but you were so perfectly calm
You trusted me, as always, not to let go

I watched your eyes slowly close for the last time
The last breathe gone as you slipped away
Strength gone, the rush of pain washed over me
‘I’m so sorry’ was all I could say

[The sun gone and the lights went out]

Now I enter the room and it’s empty
There was you… now nothing remains
The clock has stopped, the world fallen away
I stand alone in a void filled with pain

You broke me and you can’t fix broken
A part that can never mend
The piece that was given solely to you
It died and remained with you in the end.





[A moment of clarity]

As I wash away the tears, moments of clarity appear and I have begun to realize just what you really left me with.
I now know you took me to the most horrible place and I had to do the worst thing I have ever had to and then you left me
BUT I was left with more than just the guilt and the pain… you gave me something else. You left me with the most precious of things or should I say you took something with you.


YOU TOOK AWAY MY FEAR


I am no longer afraid

I’m only just discovering just how powerful a gift this really is
Thank you my friend x